Being a new mom is one thing, but breast-feeding is a whole other ball game. No one ever tells you its going to be another full time job on top of what you already have. Don't get me wrong I love the bonding moments I have with her, and I love that at times I am the only one that will calm her down. But at the same time I am giving up my entire body to her for at least 6 months or whenever food in introduced... That is a lot to take in after already giving up my body for 9 months prior. Needless to say after a few weeks we got the hang of it and I wasn't as sore anymore so it wasn't a grueling experience.
Today I got the guts to go to the towncenter. Unfortunately, to only window shop. Being a stay at home mom I don't get the luxuries other working moms get. But hey I get to look at my beautiful daughter every day, every minute and no one is telling me what to do =) I feel so lucky I can stay home and watch her grow. It worked out good, she slept the whole time I was so proud lol. It's just nice to get out into the world again even if its only for an hour. Yesterday we visited my mom and her work, picked up some pictures I got developed and then went on a walk! So you could say I am definitely confident taking her out now.
Waiting for my husband to come home from work, I decided I was going to try and look decent for when he got home... ya know get out of my yoga pants and t-shirt. So I took a shower, made some coffee ( to wake my sleepy butt up) and did my hair and make-up. Then the dreaded... my closet. What to wear, or more like what fits. After going through all my favorite outfits, which isn't a whole lot to begin with) I ended back up in my yoga pants and t-shirt. I tell ya nothing is more depressing than your "fat jeans" not fitting. I gained about 38lbs during my pregnancy.. alot more than I ever expected but I guess I just assumed it was going to fall off breast-feeding. WRONG. I mean 20lbs did easy, but the other 18 not so easy. The last thing I want to do is work out when I have time to myself. I already eat healthy.. minus the ice cream at night, but I don't eat alot. Just like everything else in my life I am going to have to work to get what/where I want. Nothing comes easy. But if it did... would I want it?
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